To Die For Something

I have spent a long time contemplating and trying to understand the idea of self sacrifice. I found even before the love of Christ, that the highest love for people is sacrifice of ones own well being and comfort for the fair treatment and liberation of an oppressed human being. Multitudes have never mattered. Only a single hurting soul is required.

When Christ entered my life I gave my life to Him. My ideas of relationships. My friends. My future children any future wife. I gave my finances and my integrity. Every moment of my life from that moment forward belong to Christ. I have been criticized a great deal for my choice. Often my motives have been questioned. My sanity. My emotional instability. I have been disowned and often avoided for my choices.

I have discovered that leadership requires much sacrifice. I have discovered that sometimes I must give everything I am and receive nothing in return. I have discovered that giving everything is a daily process. I have discovered that God asks nothing more than all from me. Excuses have become unacceptable. I can no longer blame me emotions. Or my strength. Or my time. Or my inability. I have chained my desires to the book of God. On His standards I have weighed my thoughts.

With great effort I battle myself daily and often fail to succeed to maintain my devotion. However I have found great peace in this eternal conflict. Peace that I can't explain.

With that thought I turn my gaze towards our government and I weep. When did leadership become about the money? When did we forsake the idea of killing ones self? When was "I'm only human" become and excuse for sexual immorality? When did majority opinion define our personal stances on important issues? When did privileged life come with serving the people? When did it cease to be servant hood .. when did it start to become aristocratic.

Where are the men who founded our country? Who laid down everything to see his fellow man treated with dignity and fairness? Why oh Lord have we stopped fighting for each other? What happened to the idea of freedom even if it costs you everything? Even if it means loss!

I pray that my fellow men and women Lord, would rise up to the task of leadership. That they will do away with things being "too hard" that they will dismiss the notion of "sacrificing too much". That everything or nothing will become their creed. That we as a people we learn again that every soul deserves life and fair treatment, even if it costs some of us those very same things. I pray that we will give up what we are entitled to, so that those who are without it, may obtain it. Just as Christ has done for us, I pray we learn to die for something.